As much as I would like to say that 2006 is hopefully a turning point for me in life, the most annoying thing happening this year is my chronic case of no-showing events.
Add a missed birthday party yesterday to that growing list. The neighbor's great-grandson, Dylan, turned 2 earlier in the week and his party was yesterday. I wasn't going to go all-armed with presents and cards, but thought I'd at least get a picture. But my sinuses crept up on me again, and for the third time this year, I lost my voice at the same time.
Not being a medical genius, I could not tell if I could spread the condition easily, and I vowed not to take chances. In my best puberty/non-puberty voice (which some say is normal for me), I had to call and cancel. I don't feel so bad about this one, because I was able to spend time with him on his actual birthday. That, of course, happening the day before the sinuses came in, so you have to wonder.
Take into account, therefore, what I've missed this year: a college graduation for my 45-year old cousin (because I didn't trust the car), my friend's daughter's first birthday (because the car proved I couldn't trust it), two television productions (because I worked too many hours), a screening of an independent film downtown (because of the fear of getting lost), and now this.
Ultimately, my promises are getting more shallow and I probably shouldn't agree on too many more. What it's cost me is social interaction that I've really needed. I always complain that all my waking hours are spent at work, and I do allow too much time for sleep; just ask the roommate. But I've as yet to take advantage of the few opportunities to socialize.
Is it a jinx or not? All I know is that I'm a walking billboard lately for "regrets only".
* P.S. Anyone ever have to put in for their 2007 vacation days at work seven months in advance? Please let me know that I'm not the only one who thinks this is a crazy idea!
