What a day this has been/is going to be in terms of dusting off my "memory banks" to do things I haven't done in years. Ironically, the stress level accompanying them is pretty high as well.
It was moving day for the manager's offices at work today due to demolition & construction. Prior to today, I hadn't done a complete computer re-wire job in about two years. Normally I will leave that to the roommate here, since all we've re-wired has been the computer at home. But as for re-wiring internet, ethernet, fax machines, scanners and such, it had been awhile. But it got done today. Add to that a "professional cleaning" of a couple computer keyboards. I had last done that back in 1990, when I spent my spare time cleaning keyboards at my second-ever job.
And tonight may mark my return to television directing for the first time in almost four years. Yes, the same type of work I got a diploma for. I'm called into this job perhaps four times a year, but this is the first time I might direct in years. I really had to dust off the brain and make sure I still knew all of it. But to me it's like a bike: you really don't forget.
However, it just amazes me that the memories and knowledge do fade when you don't think about them that much. It embarasses me as well when it comes to names. I worked with these people for ten years, but what does four years out of the loop do? Tonight will be full of re-introductions, I'm sure.
Where does the stress fit in? Most likely in trying to either out-do what I used to do (and as a perfectionist, out-doing can seem important), or at least to prove that I've not lost the talents I learned in college. The last thing I want is to not know what my cues are.
It's an anxious feeling, but not necessarily that bad. The activities may seem routine to some, but that breaks me out of my own routine. And that's just what I need at this stage. It should be a fun night.
